Come what may

I am in love with someone I know I can never have. 
I am waiting though he never once told me to wait for him.. (and I know he never will) 
I am hoping and expecting though he show no motive.. 
I am also assuming as if his actions are for me though they aren't really for me. 
I am paranoid and crazy over this person. 
But now, I guess for almost a year of insanity, I am now starting to be back in reality. 
I've been hurt and waited long enough for someone whom I don't know if worth the wait. 
I've been completely out of my mind assuming and expecting that somehow, he'll love me in return. 
But these are all over now.. 
I'll no longer wait for you. 
I'll stop hoping and expecting. 
I'll try harder to hinder myself from assuming. 
This is one of the most difficult challenge I could ever give to my self, 
but for my own sake, and FOR YOUR SAKE, 
I must deal with this, no matter how difficult and impossible this may seem.. 


COME WHAT MAY.. 
GOODBYE SWEET FELLOW.. 
TAKE HEART, BE HAPPY. 


----#83-#23-#maninwhite
Feb.23.13

Man-in-white

the man-in-white to whom I fell in love. 

I missed the chance of sitting right beside you
To fulfill that dream to sit right next to you
To at least feel the presence of a sweet morning dew
To smell the fragrance of that perfume you used

I've missed that chance I longed for
but what happened made me tingle even more
I was able to stare at your eyes for so long
that attractive sparkling eyes that made my heart fall

In every glance I fall deeper into you
with that adorable half smile, now I can't move
I can't resist my thoughts of you and your charm
I can no longer move away, you caught me off guard

I am amaze on how you turn my world upside down
On how you made me this feeling I have now.
You're the sweetest impossible dream I can't have,
the man-in-white to whom I fell in love.

-01.23.13

Phantasos

Sometimes I wish I never slept
Never dream and never fell
sometimes I wish I should have opened my eyes
and see how cruel my world is with lies
I am wishing for something that might never happen
And the chances of seeing the reality was stolen
I let myself be amazed by fantasies
and forgot that what I am hoping is far from reality.

You always take away my sadness with a smile
Your presence makes me nervous all the time
I was caught in the middle of my wildest fantasy
Though the fact is that there can't be YOU AND ME.

I can't read your mind, but your actions bother me
Can't you read my mind and say that one thing I want to be?

I want to be your girl and make you smile
I want to spend my time with you, each day and night.
I want to be that someone who'll wake you up each morning.
Offer you kisses and a cup of good coffee.

I am catching my own shadow,
chasing after you
I am reaching for a star, an impossible thing to do.
There'll be no us for I know you don't see.
That somebody's out here, somebody's me.

I refused many a man because you are still
the only man I want, the only one,for real.
I've madly fallen for the man in my dreams
please I need an answer, is this worth the risk?

-01.26.13